But, I did it. I managed a mile of running uphill and a further mile and a half before needing to stop (still getting the faint feeling which is massively annoying), that was progress though. I'm forcing myself to put behind me what I have been able to do and focus instead on what I can do right now. I know I can't do very much, but I am still doing *something* and that's a really important thing for me to hold on to.
Tonight's run was fairly late and pretty foggy. I don't mind running in the fog though. It's murky and silent and I need the quiet right now. I was going to go one route, but I could hear noise and shouting from that direction, so changed my plan and ended up running a longer hill instead. At least that felt a bit safer. I spend my day feeling anxious and vulnerable, I definitely don't need that with my running right now too! As I ran, I focused on counting out the rhythm of my steps. 1-2-3-4 1-2-3-4 and so on... it's weirdly soothing and definitely helps me up a climb or two. By the time I got to the top, the fog had left my eyelashes damp and my face wet. I much prefer that to the wind and rain of the last couple of weeks.
The next mile was pretty steady. And it was only at the very end that I could feel myself not feeling too great. Which is an improvement. Okay, I know for sure that pulling out of the Beacon Half is the right decision. And I won't do a really long run tomorrow. But I am finding a new way to cope with how physically and mentally exhausted I am rather than fighting it all the time. And that's progress.
350 days in a row. Still learning new stuff about myself and about my running.
Geeky stats stuff
|Avg Pace:||8:41 min/mi|
|Elevation Gain:||168 ft|