Which means that running on those same pavements, near *that* traffic and feeling that suffocating fear was just not going to happen today. I can't even get in a car to drive to get to the country parks to avoid the roads. And since running is my sanity at the moment, I felt suffocated by it all. In the end, I managed to get myself to run up the hill to the recreation ground which is about a third of a mile away. There was one car that passed me. And I ended up stopped, pinned to the fence of a nearby garden until it went by. Other than that, no cars. Which was a relief.
So, my run this evening was short. It involved going around and around the recreation ground. Zig zagging my way up and down the hill. Blanking out everything just for a short while. I've managed to pick up a throat infection on top of everything else... but I need not to think about what happened for a bit.
When people talk of 'recovery runs', I wonder if they realise how hard a run can be when you're really try to recover?
I'll get there. Am getting support - and appreciate the support I've been given more than anyone could realise - but it is very hard right now.
Geeky stats stuff
|Avg Pace:||8:36 min/mi|
|Elevation Gain:||104 ft|